Updated: Sep 7, 2020
Eight months into 2020, and I (like most others) feel like this year has been one long ass decade. I mean, we've experienced the death of Kobe Bryant, fears of WWIII thanks to the Trump administration, a live murder on our cell phones, (RIP George Floyd) a pandemic and economic collapse, Black Lives Matter protests and uproars around the world, and countless other atrocities happening all at once - all while during a Presidential election year.
Somebody tell Scottie to beam me up. Earth is so ghetto.
We are entering the sixth month of our self-quarantine and social distancing fiasco - and keeping up with my mental, physical, and emotional well-being has been one of the most challenging things to do. How do we as black men and women reconcile all that we've experienced in this year, let alone our entire existence in a country built on racism? It's safe to assume, some form of self-care is very needed during these trying times.
In my newsletter, I dive intimately into the impact COVID-19 has had on me. If you're not part of the tribe join here. I've shared my deepest struggles, my insights - as well as lessons that I have been fortunate to experience during this time of crisis. After taking a few months off to attend to my personal well-being, I have a sense of renewal, and a fresh perspective on the direction of my life.
The Corona virus (or, Rona as we like to call it) has completely annihilated our perception of work and productivity. The past six months have been dominated with zoom calls and memes about how to be productive while working from home. Frustrations mount (and rightfully so) as we're forced to remain in our homes, with limited access to outdoor activities. Btw, I'm in desperate need of a non virtual concert. Our new norm is accustomed to face coverings in public, and standing in line to get into TJ Maxx, as if it were the VIP section in the hottest club in the city. Again, where's that spaceship?
Being self-quarantined for months has forced me to reevaluate my entire life. The Universe has a way of making one sit still, and when you're forced to be still - you have no choice but to think, and process your emotions. It took some sitting with what is, to realize the gift of time that we've all been given - time to come back to self.
Rather than stress and worry about what I couldn't control, I decided to use this opportunity - as the world slowed down - to reclaim my time. I had a long list of "to-do" items, and dreams and goals that got lost by the wayside. After fumbling through my so called responsibilities, I came to the decision that I wanted to experience life differently. After all, I had more than enough free time to decide how to spend my days. I've spent more time than ever, nourishing my soul back to its natural state of being. I got the chance to create a routine that suited me and my needs - rising with the sun, or sleeping in if I so desired. I've had the pleasure of discovering new layers of myself, exploring new hobbies - such a jewelry making, and even creating my very own perfumed essential oil blend (coming soon) I've welcomed change, and let go of society's idea of productivity, and what life is supposed to look like, personally and professionally.
Owning my time and space in the world has given me a freedom I've never known. As a woman and entrepreneur, I've learned to drop unreasonable expectations of myself. I've began to put my needs and wants first. I've given myself permission to indulge in more self-care, because let's be honest - the world as we know it is changing, and we need all of the support we can get. Being gentle with myself, during a global pandemic is a daily challenge. Reminding ourselves that we're doing the best we can, can be difficult when feelings of guilt arise when we think we're supposed to be doing something. Facing a pandemic on the daily makes you surrender - a current theme that seems to be forcing all of us humans to do. I'm learning to find the beauty that exists in the midst of chaos. There's always something to be in awe of. Every moment of life is a gift, and there's still so much joy we can experience, even when the world seems to be falling apart.